Saturday, September 25, 2004
ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG Mom called this morning and wanted to come back - ummmm I don't think so!!!!! WTF?? She's only been gone a week.... Then she called to cancel the "order"... whatever...
Life is fairly good although Dev was home 2 days this week - he didn't sleep well and was having a rough time in the am - better to keep him home as he had some major meltdowns but overall he's doing well - I had him do some extra homework and damn the boy is smart!!! Dilen is doing well in Kindi too - picture day is Tues and I am excited...
E is having a rough time this weekend so far - he's really really working on his drinking problem and it's been rough for him but we are just taking things one day at a time and I am doing alot of praying..
And speaking of praying - since the cat is out of the bag for the most part.... I am pregnant... Seems my birthday celebration really left me w/a wonderful gift... I am due 4/26/05 and I am just over 9 wks pg... God works in mysterious ways for sure - while I am still a little shocked as I was never even thinking/planning this right now and I am nervousand scared, I am also happy and excited - any and every baby is a blessing... I have been to doc twice for a u/s and all looks well - sac was well rounded and had a nice "halo" the first time and last Thurs it was same and baby was looking well w/a heartbeat... I am still hesitant to be overly excited and pray multiple times a day to keep the baby safe, healthy and strong... I have another appointment on Oct 15th which will be just past the 12 wk mark... IF I can manage to stay away from the office and not stress too much before then...
The boys are excited although Dilen was worried at first and told me I couldn't have a baby that I already had a baby - him... I explained that I would always love him, he will always be my baby Dilen and that I love him and Deven the same and would still love them the same even after the baby comes... He is ok now and looking forward to being a big brother... E too is happy yet I think he is also hesitant to be too attached at times as we were both so heartbroken last time but overall he's happy... and yes E is the father.... We have been working on reconciling and trying to work things out for a couple of months now... So far, while it's been rocky and emotional at times, it's going well... He's really working on bettering himself and I am working on just taking things one day at time and repeating the Serenity Prayer ALOT....
Well I am tired and the bean wants a cheeseburger which my gf should be bringing any minute now... She is spending the night since her SO and E are working the night shift... We are gonna watch Mean Girls and crash out.... Now where is that cheeseburger! *L* Til next time...
Life is fairly good although Dev was home 2 days this week - he didn't sleep well and was having a rough time in the am - better to keep him home as he had some major meltdowns but overall he's doing well - I had him do some extra homework and damn the boy is smart!!! Dilen is doing well in Kindi too - picture day is Tues and I am excited...
E is having a rough time this weekend so far - he's really really working on his drinking problem and it's been rough for him but we are just taking things one day at a time and I am doing alot of praying..
And speaking of praying - since the cat is out of the bag for the most part.... I am pregnant... Seems my birthday celebration really left me w/a wonderful gift... I am due 4/26/05 and I am just over 9 wks pg... God works in mysterious ways for sure - while I am still a little shocked as I was never even thinking/planning this right now and I am nervousand scared, I am also happy and excited - any and every baby is a blessing... I have been to doc twice for a u/s and all looks well - sac was well rounded and had a nice "halo" the first time and last Thurs it was same and baby was looking well w/a heartbeat... I am still hesitant to be overly excited and pray multiple times a day to keep the baby safe, healthy and strong... I have another appointment on Oct 15th which will be just past the 12 wk mark... IF I can manage to stay away from the office and not stress too much before then...
The boys are excited although Dilen was worried at first and told me I couldn't have a baby that I already had a baby - him... I explained that I would always love him, he will always be my baby Dilen and that I love him and Deven the same and would still love them the same even after the baby comes... He is ok now and looking forward to being a big brother... E too is happy yet I think he is also hesitant to be too attached at times as we were both so heartbroken last time but overall he's happy... and yes E is the father.... We have been working on reconciling and trying to work things out for a couple of months now... So far, while it's been rocky and emotional at times, it's going well... He's really working on bettering himself and I am working on just taking things one day at time and repeating the Serenity Prayer ALOT....
Well I am tired and the bean wants a cheeseburger which my gf should be bringing any minute now... She is spending the night since her SO and E are working the night shift... We are gonna watch Mean Girls and crash out.... Now where is that cheeseburger! *L* Til next time...
Monday, September 20, 2004
And life is good... Took mom to the airport on Sat and she is safely ensconced in Wisconsin w/Auntie Eleanor.... The boys are doing well in school and momma is enjoying her job AND her two full days off in a row each week... Life is good... Lots of exciting things been happening lately and I promise to update you all soon but just know I am feeling well and in a good place... Til next time...
Thursday, September 02, 2004
ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I think we are all a little cranky and tired today... I just gotta remember to breath in, breath out... gonna take a few more sick hours off and get out of here before my head explodes... Gonna go hide in the grocery store for a bit.... Just gotta remain calm..... Til next time....
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
I am tired today but feeling alot better at the moment.... The boys are just toooo adorable for words sometimes... We were all laying in my bed the other night and telling each other "I love you" and Deven said to me "Thank you for loving us momma" - my heart almost exploded w/love.... And Dilen lost his first tooth on Monday night... TF visited last night and left him a dollar and now he wants to go Dollar Store for a toy! Tomorrow I DEFINATELY register Dilen for Kindi... I still can't believe my baby is gonna be in KINDI!!! Work is good - I like having the new gal w/us - she really helps make the day brighter and has taken stress off of me.... I enjoying coming to work more then I did before.... Better run, work to do... Til next time....
